Sunday, January 30, 2011
19 days
So as of today it has been 19 days since I've seen Mike. I miss him so much. I finally got my first letter from him on wednesday, I was so excited. I get a flower from him every wednesday for our movie nights. Makes my day every week to get his not and a flower. I found out from him that he gets a 2 day break at the end of march. I get to see him for a whole weekend after about 10 weeks of not being able to see him at all. I can't wait to see him in his ACUS in person. 54 days and counting. I have an surprise for him when I see him and I know he will love it. So friday night when i had laid down about ready to fall asleep, I realized that it was the first night I'd slept in my apartment without him. The first 2 weekends he was gone I had stayed at my parents house because my sister was visiting and I work third shift so during the week I sleep during the day. It felt so weird not having his arm around as I fell asleep. I can't wait to go to the mall next weekend so I can get my soldier bear from build a bear and atleast have a temporary soldier to keep me safe at night until I have my real one back. There have been some good days and some bad days. On one of the army girlfriend pages on facebook there were some people making fake profiles and starting a bunch of drama calling us all whores and tag chasers, they claimed to be in the army but theres no way I can see a soldier treating a girl like that, so I don't believe it for a second. Luckily there is another page that I really like that no trolls have gotten to yet and I hope it stays that way. It's really nice to have girls to talk to who have already been through this if I have questions about anything or just need to vent for a little bit. I've been writing mike everyday and hopefully he finally got my first letter yesterday, if not he should get it tomorow. I can't wait to get his response from mine. There's an answer to something I said to him I'm waiting for and I can't believe he's making me wait a week to get it. I can't wait to beable to move in with him in august, I'm crossing my fingers for North Carolina, but as long as I get to have my life with him I would even go to the middle of nowhere texas, but i really hope not. We both have our hearts set on North Carolina. It would be a beautiful place to live. He'd beable to get his 5 acres, although he could get that anywhere. He told me he didn't want to reenlist because he didn't want to have to be away from me any longer than he had to be. But I know he wanted to add another year so he could get the bonus and use it to buy his 5 acres he wants. Plus he was going to change his MOS to something less or non deployable where he could learn how to fly or something. I have to wait until I get his response to my letter to know for sure. He's been telling me that some of the guys in his platoon haven't been acting so good so he might not get any phone time, and they keep him from getting any phone time you best bet that if I ever run into any of them they will get a piece of my mind. You should already know before you ship that your going to have to keep your mouth shut and behave, I know I wouldn't want to be the one who ruined things for the entire platoon. I just want to beable to talk him even if it's only once. Our last phone call was horrible. He literally only had 10 seconds and couldn't even stay on the phone long enough to hear me say i love you because he didn't want me to hear the drill sergeant yell through the phone. I didn't even have a chance to get one word in besides hello. So I'll wait as patiently as I can, atleast every day I'm one day closer to my wonderful weekend with him, and I have my letters to look forward to everyday (except sunday unfortunatly).
Monday, January 17, 2011
Vegetarian Rant
So in this blog I'm gonna start off by going on a tangent. For those of you who don't know I am a vegetarian and have been for over a year. I am very against any kind of animal abuse and think that animals and our planet need to be treated alot better than they are getting treating now. One of my favorite quotes is "The greatness of a nation and its moral progress can be judged by the way in which its animals are treated." That quote says very bad things about what's happing right now. And i agree 100% with it. Ok so now to what thoughts made me want to go on a tangent for this blog.
So this past weekend I went to St. Louis to pick up my sister and see my dad for a day. On Saturday we went to a zoo that was down there. I don't like zoos for hopefully obvious reasons but it was free and it was walk around with my dad and sister or be stuck in a cold car for however long. For one we saw 3 animals and a bunch of fish, it's winter and of course a lot of those animals are from warmer climates, so it was really boring and I got sick of being there almost instantly. So around the closed food places there are a bunch of signs that say stuff like 'feed your inner carnivore' and here I am thinking how can so many people eat their burgers while peacefully watching other animals. Is it because they don't know all of the pain and hurt that went into that burger and the animals they are watching seem content (even though an animal pacing is not it trying to be cute, it means that animal is bored out of it's mind). Or is it because your not eating a cheetah burger while watching the cheetah. Would it be different if they sold burgers next to a cow exhibit? Or bacon next to a pig exhibit? Most people I'm sure ignore this connection so they can peacefully keep eating that tortured soul. But why is it ok to eat meat from a cow but if you found out that burger you were eating was actually meat from a dog you would be completely grossed out. Most people grow up being told that eating a cow is alright but dogs are pets. I guess I'm one of the few that can see a cow isn't better than a dog for any reason and I hope that more people in time will come to this realization.
So this past weekend I went to St. Louis to pick up my sister and see my dad for a day. On Saturday we went to a zoo that was down there. I don't like zoos for hopefully obvious reasons but it was free and it was walk around with my dad and sister or be stuck in a cold car for however long. For one we saw 3 animals and a bunch of fish, it's winter and of course a lot of those animals are from warmer climates, so it was really boring and I got sick of being there almost instantly. So around the closed food places there are a bunch of signs that say stuff like 'feed your inner carnivore' and here I am thinking how can so many people eat their burgers while peacefully watching other animals. Is it because they don't know all of the pain and hurt that went into that burger and the animals they are watching seem content (even though an animal pacing is not it trying to be cute, it means that animal is bored out of it's mind). Or is it because your not eating a cheetah burger while watching the cheetah. Would it be different if they sold burgers next to a cow exhibit? Or bacon next to a pig exhibit? Most people I'm sure ignore this connection so they can peacefully keep eating that tortured soul. But why is it ok to eat meat from a cow but if you found out that burger you were eating was actually meat from a dog you would be completely grossed out. Most people grow up being told that eating a cow is alright but dogs are pets. I guess I'm one of the few that can see a cow isn't better than a dog for any reason and I hope that more people in time will come to this realization.
Wednesday, January 12, 2011
My First Attempt At Writing A Blog...Enjoy
Ok so I'm new to this whole blogging thing. This is mainly for my boyfriend so he can know all of my thoughts and also so I can keep them in order myself. So Mike, my boyfriend, just left for kentucky today to start basic training for the army. I just got my last phone call from him before he left and it sucked, I don't know when I'll beable to talk to him again on the phone.
So back to the begining. Freshman year of highschool we had dated for a few weeks, he was my first boyfriend and thanks to one of his friends the first guy to break my heart. Nothing happened during these few weeks I was super shy back then and wasn't about to make any first moves even though i badly wanted him to kiss me back then. So then highschool goes by, I think we talked a few times here and there, I had a few more boyfriends. Now I only vaguely remember this part but according to him we hung out once for a short time when we were around 18 sometime after graduation. He says he wanted to kiss me then but "it didn't feel right" so 3 years go by and still no kiss from him. We didn't hang out again after that. So we both went on with our lives, I don't think he had crossed my mind for a few years. I finally moved out of my parents and into an apartment. One night me and my roomate and a few friends decided to go to the bar and have some fun, I made sure I looked good seeing how I was single and all (turns out it's a good thing I did). At one point during the night my roomate mentioned this guy we passed who she thought was cute, I only caught the back of him after he passed. After that I go up to the bar to get a drink and the guy she thought was cute turns around, and of course it's mike who I havent seen in almost 3 years. The rest of the night goes on we exchange some glances, but no exchanging of numbers. Luckily a few days later I hunted down his number from one of my friends and we have now been happily together for 5 months.
Yesterday he was at my apartment all night and all morning with me, and his sergeant came to pick him up about 1:35 ish. It was a tough goodbye for both of us. And I know guys are suppose to be tough and all that, but him tearing up when he was walking out the door meant so much to me, not that I had any doubts about his feelings for me before that, but it meant that he was truly gonna miss me and I don't think a guy has ever done that towards me. I know that I am gonna miss him terribly. 16 weeks and he will be mine again. Graduation is on May 13th and I am counting down the days.
One last thing before I go, I came home from work today with a single pinkish rose with a letter at my apartment. He arranged for his sister to drop it off after he had left. I look forward to the other surprises I'll be getting while he's gone.
Nikki
So back to the begining. Freshman year of highschool we had dated for a few weeks, he was my first boyfriend and thanks to one of his friends the first guy to break my heart. Nothing happened during these few weeks I was super shy back then and wasn't about to make any first moves even though i badly wanted him to kiss me back then. So then highschool goes by, I think we talked a few times here and there, I had a few more boyfriends. Now I only vaguely remember this part but according to him we hung out once for a short time when we were around 18 sometime after graduation. He says he wanted to kiss me then but "it didn't feel right" so 3 years go by and still no kiss from him. We didn't hang out again after that. So we both went on with our lives, I don't think he had crossed my mind for a few years. I finally moved out of my parents and into an apartment. One night me and my roomate and a few friends decided to go to the bar and have some fun, I made sure I looked good seeing how I was single and all (turns out it's a good thing I did). At one point during the night my roomate mentioned this guy we passed who she thought was cute, I only caught the back of him after he passed. After that I go up to the bar to get a drink and the guy she thought was cute turns around, and of course it's mike who I havent seen in almost 3 years. The rest of the night goes on we exchange some glances, but no exchanging of numbers. Luckily a few days later I hunted down his number from one of my friends and we have now been happily together for 5 months.
Yesterday he was at my apartment all night and all morning with me, and his sergeant came to pick him up about 1:35 ish. It was a tough goodbye for both of us. And I know guys are suppose to be tough and all that, but him tearing up when he was walking out the door meant so much to me, not that I had any doubts about his feelings for me before that, but it meant that he was truly gonna miss me and I don't think a guy has ever done that towards me. I know that I am gonna miss him terribly. 16 weeks and he will be mine again. Graduation is on May 13th and I am counting down the days.
One last thing before I go, I came home from work today with a single pinkish rose with a letter at my apartment. He arranged for his sister to drop it off after he had left. I look forward to the other surprises I'll be getting while he's gone.
Nikki
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